Just Not Today.

So I was on myspace and they have friend updates so you can see when your friend upload new things and such. I like country music but haven't been keeping up with it lately. Well one of my friends added a new song onto their profile and it was Kenny Chesney, whom I absolutely love. It was a song I haven't heard yet so I clicked on it to listen. I think everything happens for a reason and this song came to me at the perfect time. I know that sounds weird, but I believe it. The song is called Just Not Today. This is the part that really means something to me:

But one of these days
Where going to have to grow up and get real jobs
And be adults, some day, but not today
Have to worry about things out of our control
Like kids, love, money and getting old someday
Just not today, just not today.

Ive been stressing out alot lately. Trying to balance real life and growing up and I've been feeling like I'm stuck in the middle and don't know which way to go. I'm not ready to grow up and take on adult responsibilities but at the same time I've never been more ready. When I analyze myself and look at my thought process I've begun to see that maybe I'm getting this all wrong. I feel like I'm still in a teenage phase and I need to grow up. This is infact true, but at the same time not. I am in transition in my life and its really important that I am able to deal with it in the best way I can. So while I'm growing up and obtaining all these new responsibilities I have to learn to not loose the child inside. Yea, I am studying Law at the university. Yea, I'm moving out and will have my own place with my own bills. Yea, I have a fulltime job. But I cannot forget the fact that I like to dance and watch cartoons and that I like to color and draw pictures. I cannot loose who I am just because I have to grow up. I also cannot forget to make time for all those things that I have always and will always love to do.
So... I am glad that I stumbled across that song. Now I have to not worry about having to pick, I can be both an adult and a child and I believe I'm fortunate to realize that because too often adults forget about the childs soul they have on the inside.
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