Calling it quitssss.

Finally I got the nerve up to end it with that boy I was dating. It was a bad situation and I should have never gotten myself involved in the first place. He was without a doubt the meanest person I have ever met in my entire life. He would always do things to purposely hurt my feelings. I've never in my life been straight punched in my face by a guy. I've never had a guy threaten my life. And to think I put up with all of it hoping and wishing someday he would change. But the sayings true, you cant teach an old dog new tricks. I will never again in my life put myself in that situation where I am scared of my own boyfriend. Like I've always said, I know I don't deserve the best, but I do deserve better than that. My whole life I've always wondered how in the world abused women always go back to their lovers. But now I know. I see where they are coming from and because of that I am so much more understanding. This is another reason why I want to go into law and become a prosecuting attorney.. I want to help. Give back to the community for all the times I've been helped by those that love me.

Now that I broke up with him for good I feel so good. I feel like I can sleep okay at night knowing that everything IS going to be okay. I know what it is to truly fear someone that claims they love you, I never saw that one coming at all. I am very thankful for all my friends that are here for me to listen to me when I feel like I need to talk. They have my back and I could not be any luckier to have such great friends. I am sooo cheerful. I am ready for the holidays. I am ready for it to snow. I am ready to get my life back. I gave him all his stuff back so its doneeee. I want it to snow so I can go dance in it, that would make me thrilled.

I could go on and on about B and say how bad of a person he is but I'm not going to waste my time. He was going nowhere in life and was going to use me to fall back on, when he told me that I should have known right away. But its all said and done with and its the weekend and I'm ready to have some fun!

let it snow, we can make snow angels <3

you cant fence time.

And you cant stop love.

You know its true, you really cant help who you love. its not like you get to pick that kind of thing. It just kind of happens whether your ready or not. Whether you want to or not. You cant help it, you really cant. Your heart doesn't care what your head has to say, it does not consider its input under any and all circumstances. No matter how unlogical it is, your hearts going to do as it pleases.
The worst thing about loving someone you know you shouldn't is that the same feelings are not always returned. Friendship is one thing but love is a completely different level. How do you stop loving someone you never intended to love in the first place. Simple, you cant.

I hate being young. I hate having to deal with all the ambiguity of being a "child". Who knows whats going to happen today or tomorrow or next month or next year.. ten years from now.

All I can do right now is hope for a better day and deal with the current problems at hand.
I have many dreams and ambitions and I cannottt let these minor dilemmas hold me back from anything.

I hope its pretty tomorrow =]

Stressed.

The end of the semester is always the worst. I am just ready for it to be all said and done with. Next semester where are you??

I hate having to take finals and the worst semester of the whole year is the fall semester. Not only do you have to take all these tests (and I have to write a 25 page sociolinguistic profile) but you have to hike across campus in the freezing cold. This is no where near fun. I refuse to pay almost 90 dollars to park at the stadium and ride a tarc to and from class. So I park like a mile from my classes and walk. I am aware that it is good exercise but geez, it is damn near freezing. But if thats what i have to do to save that much money, then I will do it.
I can not wait for Spring 2009. Although I am not looking forward to taking Microeconomics, ew.
But not only am I stressed about school. I absolutely hate my job. They do not pay me enough for all the work I do. So I am looking for a new one, which is a task considering how aweful our economy is due to one of the worst Presidents our Nation has ever elected, which is a completly different bone to pick.
So now, not only is work cutting my hours, but I have rent to pay and complete bills and Christmas is less than a month away.
Shoot me now.