Lennon

Recently I have borrowed some books from my mum to read. One of the books is the Playboy interviews with John Lennon and Yoko Ono.

John Lennon: Mahatma Ghandi and Martin Luther King are great examples of fantastic nonviolents who died violently. I can never work that out. We're pacifists, but I'm not sure what it means when you're such a pacifist that you get shot. I can never understand that.

two months later, December 8, 1980.
John Lennon was shot.

Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

forty three

days until my birthday, whoo!
I guess this is the last year to mean anything, being 21 and what not.
now that I have moved out my list when it comes to my birthday have changed. Instead of asking for things I want like clothing, etc. I am asking for things I actually need, with the exception of one thing that is just for my reading pleasure.
I have asked my dad for new tires on my bike being that they are dry rotting and old.
I also need a coffee maker but i would rather have a blender. I need a door runner for my closet door in the hallway because there is a huge gap between the door and the floor. I also need a flat iron for my hair and lastly I am asking for Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows... something I have been dying to read but is out of my budget.
And I believe that would be the shortest birthday wish list I have ever come up with, ahh the joys of growing up.

pictures i promised.

My cats do really enjoy the place, as do I. I will be very pleased when I get my couches here one day!





Heres a video:

Free at last.

So its official, I have move out of my parents houses for good. Well, thats the plan anyways. I signed my lease a month ago so I'm just now experiencing full freedom! I have the full freedom of living on my own, no freedom over the money in my bank account.. because there is none! I found my a one bedroom apartment in Old Louisville so its close to campus and I can save money by riding my bike to school and work. I'm completely satisfied of my first place. Its not a studio so it has separate rooms and plenty of space which is a huge plus. There is enough space for my cats and plenty or windows for them to look out of. I'm on the third floor of one of the old homes so there is only one apartment on the top floor so I have windows on every side of the house. I only have to worry about me and my things.. no one else. I have everything moved in except for my couches because they are huge and no one can figure out how to get them in yet. But i have chairs and things so its working out splendid! My marvelous father installed my window unit and put bars on the window in my bedroom because it leads to the fire escape and its not hard to climb up it.
I feel grown up, like there's no turning back now. I have rent and bills to pay so I'm having to budget my money for the first time really. Rent is 400$ a month and I have to pay gas and utilities. I have to feed and take care of myself as well as my cats. Its really bright during the day time because of all the windows so I never have to turn lights on while the suns up, so that saves a lot of money.
I love it here in my new home with my small little baby family :)
Hopefully soon I will have some pictures I can upload of my new place!!

depths.

Wise Words

I have this friend named Jacob. The last few days weve been hanging out riding bikes and stuff and I've just recently realized how geniousss he is. I was looking at his myspace and im totally stealing his blog. But after reading it.. theres no way I could say it anyyy better than he did:


addiction
Current mood: melancholy
Category: Life
fuck. that should be all. it is not.

isnt it funny how these little constants in our life are all that keep us going. these little seemingly nonexistant dependencies that rule each and every point of our perseity. however tragic it may be, we need each and every one of these normalties. and however tragic this may be, the removal of even one, or a fraction of one, begins a downward spiral sucking countless others into its devistating nature.

whether or not this innate desire for normalty, for comfort, is an addiction is debatable. i, however, feel that it is. i think that each of us depends solely on what we are used to and what we expect to happen. despite a change in lifestyle, location, the company you keep, or any other changes, there are still always these constants which come with us; the evolution of said constants is necesary and natural, but does not discount the fact that the constants are within. we bring them with us, it is inevitable, one cannot escape oneself.

addiction traditionally is viewed as a problem, as a disease. the word is also more frequently used to describe a dependance on some dangerous substance or habit. whether your addiction be drugs, alcohol, nicotine, sex, love, chocolate, plastic dashboard jesi (plural of jesus?), a favorite pillow, diet coke, chachkas, the presence of a certain person, whatever the fuck you need, the removal of it throws your entire world off of its axis.

it is when one realizes that these things are what make them who they are that they truly become complete. for any one person to say that there is not one thing in this world that they dont know what they would do without, is simply a lie.

im not really sure where im going with this but i am sure that i have done some serious thinking today and i have figured out that though so many of my "addictions" have evolved, so so many of them have also been lost over the past few years. and due to the loss of these dependencies ive realized that i may never be complete, which makes me question my own theory of completeity (made up word). in effect, the new revised verson of jacob's theory or completeity is that when one realizes these necessities and realizes that they still possess each, or have come to terms with the loss of one and no longer desires it, then and only then is that person complete.

The Best Text Message EVER.

uhh yeah michael. youre brilliant. he should stop worrying about you leaving him for a musician and start worrying about about what hes going to do to keep you around.

I love Elizabeth<3