New year, same stress.

Hello 2009.
Hopefully this year might be better, odds are...this is wishful thinking.

Right off the bat I am going back to school in three days. Joy.
So I log on to ULink, UofL's student site, to check and see which classes I am taking and when. I figured while I was at it I would check and see what books I am going to be purchasing in the immediate future. WHOAAAAAAA. Get a load of this:

Microeconomics Book 1 = $102.00
Microeconomics Book 2 = $104.50
Theoretical Criminology = $59.95
Role Playing..Decision Making (Urban Politics & Gov't) = $45.75
Political Change in the Metropolis = $67.50
Democratic Constitution = $26.25
American Constitutional Law = $64.25
TOTAL =======470.20

Now I would love if someone can tell me where on earth am I going to stumble across this much money, cause lord knows I dont have it. All of these prices are also used... not even new. I've searched Amazon, none cheaper. I've even searched CraigsList, no luck. Asked the parentals, that was a hell no. Searched online Scholarships, barely eligible for any of them. I suppose I'll have to see what the Mum will say.
I need to set up a 'Blaire needs books badly' fund.

I am baffled. Not only is tuition rising for bullshit hidden reasons, but the price of books is insanely ridiculous. RIDICULOUS. How do they expect anyone to graduate. It flat out stinks. My parents make just barelyyy enough money so that the gov't wont do anything to help yet they dont make enough to pay for all of it. Our gov't sucks.

But this leads me to a different subject...
At school you have to fill out your FAFSFA. Which is all your parents financial information and blah blah blah. This is what they look at to judge whether you will recieve any financial grants. On my FAFSFA they look at both my mother and my fathers income. So I never recieve any gov't aid because my parents make 'just enough'. Excuse me but I think this is all BULLSHIT. I dont even see why they take into account my father because he doesn't do shit for me when it comes to school. He never once has helped me pay for books. Never once helped with any tuition money. And hes all about "I'm so proud of you," "Can't wait for you to graduate"... well if I drop out he cant say a damn thing cause the only way he's supporting me is verbally and that don't pay the bills. How in the world am I supposed to take these courses and do good in them if I cannot even afford to buy the freakin' books?????

So basically I have a week at the most to come up with close to five-hundred dollars. I guess I'm going to have to get a job at Deja Vu.
Or maybe I'll just settle with standing on the corner.