learn to flyyy

Black bird singing in the dead of night. take these broken wings and learn to flyyy.
.i love the beatles.
i also love being happy and thats really what i need to focus on right now. im tired of fighting to make everyone happy. im tired of hurting. im tired of feeling like im in the wrong when i know damn well im not. i just recently got a new job at boombozz as a hostess. and i was talking to one of my managers. And we were talking and she just put things in a whole new different perspective for me. I was really down. Theres a song, it says "Always up and down, never down and out". Honestly, lately ive been feeling down anddd out. She really made me feel a whole hell of a lot better. Its about to be summer. Ive been stressing out enough this winter and i dont need it anymore. i dont want it. and i realize i dont have to have it. I got a new job.. might be picking up a second one for more money. I want to do volunteer work or community service. I just want to help someone or give something back to the community, help the environment or something. It's just time for me to grow up and start acting like it.